A Girl Who’s Relentless.
God is faithful. Let me tell you a little bit about what’s going on lately. We are all friends right? So, the past month I have been struggling with Vertigo, feeling lightheaded and dizzy. I am 22 years old, and have seen TONS of doctors, even made several trips to the emergency room, since I have lived in Dallas. There has been this battle with my health lately and its very stressful and hard on my marriage.
I finally got a VNG test which means they make you dizzy on purpose, so that they can figure out why. Well I started to believe in lies from the enemy “ You have an issue with your brain, probably a tumor” kept running through my mind. Well, I got the results today and they talked about it being a vestibular dysfunction. Something that can not really be helped by medicine. They told me to prepare to live with this for the rest of my life and hope that physical therapy will help. Gurl, what?
My heart let me tell you, it sunk. I did not want to believe what they were saying to me… SO I am not LOL I am giving it to Jesus. I am not claiming it and I believe that healing is coming my way and that God can do a miracle in me today. I decide to cling on to what God says. Cling on to His word “ By HIS stripes I am healed” Him dying on the cross, is more than enough. A really wise friend of mine, has been encouraging me and telling me that God is greater and reminding me of his goodness! I know all of this is an attack from the enemy.
I told the Lord ever since I moved here, everything has gone wrong. I didn’t get two jobs I really wanted, I’ve had more health issues now than ever in my life. I told him, that I would apply for one more job here, and if i didn’t get it I want to go back home. Because everything has seemed to got wrong. I want to go back to what’s comfortable.
Geez this story is long. Hang in there. Today I got a call from the last job i just spoke about. Happens to be my dream job that I applied for here. They want me to interview tomorrow. Let me tell you my immediate thoughts: SHOCKED, terrified, excited,& dizzy. LOL But you know what, this was what I needed. This is a wake up call because God doesn’t want me to be bound by sickness, the doctors may say one thing, but God says another. God has just been showing up. I don’t deserve it. I don’t. I am selfish and always wanting to make sure I am okay. But why not put my energy in the joy of the Lord? Trusting He will provide and be my strength. Believing tomorrow will be the best day ever.
That song from Elevation “ You are faithful, why should my heart be afraid”. Think about all the things God brought you through. If you can’t think about anything God brought you through, read your BIBLE!! :) Jesus is walking with you, you’re not alone. You are not bound by anxiety, depression,& disease. There is freedom. I believe that for you and me. Why should we be afraid? Why should we let emotions define us? Jesus in the garden, he freaked out right? But God gave Him peace and He will DO IT for us too!
I say yes Jesus. I am relentless because of YOU! I am strong because of you! We will be healed bc of You, Your mercy and Your power. Jesus will always be here for me & you.
O Lord my God, I cried out to You. And You healed me. O Lord, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.” Psalms 30:1-2